My previous attempts to lose weight this year have failed, as well as every attempt the previous year and the year before that. I don’t have much willpower and it is much easier to eat a package of biscuits for dinner than to cook a healthy meal. I don’t actually eat a whole package of biscuits for dinner, but being insulin resistant I know what works for me and what not. A diet high in carbs and sugar makes me put on weight, while a diet high in protein and fat makes me lose weight. You say that doesn’t make sense? Maybe because you think low-fat is healthy and a diet high in fat can’t possibly make you thin. That’s fine and I gave up explaining people my theory of the matter. After all, who is listening to nutritional advice from somebody who is four stone overweight. I never ate much and I am not lazy and yet I carry a little bit more around the middle than I should. In January this year I made the decision to lose weight, I followed the Paleo diet for three months and I lost 24lbs. Below is a picture of me in the beginning of April just before I had my exams and thanks to a lot of stress I went back to my unhealthy eating habits.
I know that, of course, even in the picture above, I had a long way to my goal weight BUT I was closer than I am now. You wouldn’t believe how much I ate every day and yet I lost weight so easily. In the morning I ate a huge omelet, fried in butter – sometimes with cherry tomatoes, sometimes with mushrooms. At lunch I would eat a large salad with oil, lemon juice and some protein, either fish or chicken. Then in the evening I had vegetables with steak (again fried in butter – because butter is actually good for you) or chicken. If I was hungry between meals I would drink water and snack on nuts. I did not count calories and I wasn’t hungry. After a while I actually had to remind myself to eat, instead of waking up hungry in the morning I sometimes could easily go without food until early lunchtime. I also drank a lot more water throughout the day – a minimum of three litres. When you know think: Well, if the diet is so great – then why didn’t she stick to it? The answer is simple: I have a hate/love relationship with food. Of course you fancy that slice of cake at some stage. My trigger was Maxi’s Christening on the 12th of April: Lots of food I shouldn’t eat on the Paleo diet and I ate it. That’s fine, you know sometimes but I felt like I failed – again. So instead of continuing to eat healthy again the next day, I felt horrible and ate even more food I shouldn’t. The motto was to start again on Monday. Sunday evening, my friend and I ordered pizza for dinner after already binge-eating carbohydrates all day long.
I dreaded to go on the scales on Monday with a reason. I was nearly 7lbs heavier than Saturday morning. Saturday, the 12th of April I weighed in at 160.7lbs, on Monday my weight was up to 167.3lbs. I was in shock, disgusted by myself and instead of thinking, let’s go back to Paleo, it is only water weight and it will fall off easily, I fell into that dark hole again. I had the choice right there and then, I actually had the choice on Saturday, the day of the Christening. Instead, I ate more and more. Sunday, the 20th of April I was up to 171.3lbs. I knew I wasn’t going to make my goal weight until my holiday in June, I knew I failed again. My daily weigh-ins to keep me motivated and to check that the weight that fell off so far had actually fallen off, were over. I looked for excuses and I found them.
Not only did I eat rubbish, I also stopped drinking enough water every day. I replaced the my daily 3-4 litres of water with diet coke, was even hungrier and ate even more. This morning my scales ‘announced’ a weight of 180lbs, that is nearly 20lbs heavier than I was in the beginning of April. When I was offered to do a weight loss program with a newspaper I couldn’t say but yes. So today at 9:30 a cab picked me up and took me to the Tower Bridge Studio. When I arrived, I was greeted by the team and the makeup artist did a fantastic job with my makeup. It was a natural style we went for, the glamourous makeup will be done in eight weeks and yes, I am looking forward to it. My hair only needed a little more straightening and the stylist gave me some great jeans, a dark green top and some lovely shoes. Shortly after I was ready to have my pictures taken. Stewart Williams was the photographer and he is quite known in the scene. I was a bit nervous but he made me feel very comfortable. We took a few pictures of my, 3/4 length and the full body. Front, side and pictures from the back. A few times with a serious smile, and the rest with my best smile. It was so much fun, once I was in front of the camera I felt great. I am looking back to returning to the after shooting on the 18th of December. This is eight weeks from tomorrow and I am planning to lose 2lbs a week, making a total of 16lbs. Wish me luck and I need all your support. If you are trying to lose weight at the moment, leave your details below in the comment box and we can stay in touch. I know that eight weeks are only the beginning of my journey, but this is such a great inspiration for me. I don’t want to have my pictures published in a newspaper with a circulation of over two million a day and not having lost weight. So, every Wednesday from now on will be Weightloss Wednesday!